I looked, and my last post was in January???? what’s the point in having a blog if I don’t ever blog, was the question I pondered.
I guess the problem was, I was trying to write “just the right thing, at just the right time.” I was making too much of this, and thus giving myself a major case of writer’s block.
So, today, the first weekday in March, is a new day, and a new start to this blog. These entries will be basically, some thoughts, some brief journaling, on the Scripture of the day. Here is today’s entry. . .
“Whom have I in heaven but you? And earth has nothing I desire besides you. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.”
God, are you really everything to me? Can I honestly say that there is nothing on earth I desire besides you? That is my heart’s desire. God, if you are everything, then I don’t need the approval of others to be ok; You absolutely love and accept me. If you are everything, then I don’t have to worry; you will provide what I need, when I need it. If you are truly everything, then I can be free to release people from any expectations I may have. You are all I need; you are my forever portion.
Knowing that You are the strength of my heart is so comforting to me. The phrase “my flesh and my heart may fail” resonates as I deal with my failing health. I don’t have to worry about the future. You are the strength of my heart in the present. You are my portion forever, for the future.
God, I want you to be my everything. I truly have no one else but You.