Psalm 139:23-24 “Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.”
I used to be intimidated by this verse. I didn’t necessarily want God searching my heart, knowing my thoughts. I didn’t really want to explore my deepest, innermost feelings and thoughts. What if I didn’t like what I would see? More importantly, what if God didn’t like what He would find?
How foolish and shortsighted I was! Now I beg God to search my heart, to look at my thoughts through His wisdom, through His love, through His compassion and faithfulness; through His determination to complete the good work that He has started in me (Philippians 1:6).
Opening my thoughts, my feelings, my heart to God for Him to work His ways is the only way to the life that is the best for me. It doesn’t matter how much it will hurt. I want God to remake my heart into a heart that clings to Him, that desires Him.
And, how did I ever think that God doesn’t already know my deepest thoughts?!
Plea for Grace 