Oh, the depth of the riches and wisdom and knowledge of God! How unsearchable are his judgments and how inscrutable his ways!
For from him and through him and to him are all things. To him be glory forever. Amen Romans 11:33, 36
I don’t really think of how basic life and breath are a true, merciful gift from an awesome, indescribable God.
Not until every breath is labored and painful and difficult.
I don’t think about the privilege of food choices and the abundance of food and “things” I enjoy here.
Not until my diet “restricts” so many of those choices. Not until my energy level doesn’t allow all the walking through “the store”
In other words, I realize that there are “big” blessings that are so big that I think they are “just there,” rather than the gift and the privilege and the blessing that they truly are
life breath loving husband children home freedom
But even more basic, even more amazing to me that this would be a “blessing”
God’s relentless pursuit of me to save my eternal soul. I was not one of those sweet little church girls who prayed the sinner prayer at age 5, went to Sunday School and VBS and church camp and read her Bible every day and was a perfect picture of growing in Christ.
Not even close. I didn’t trust. I balked at God’s commands as being harsh and unreasonable. I wanted my own way. I knew better. I ran. Physically, and more destructively, I ran emotionally.
I got more tired. I got more frustrated. More hopeless. More desperate.
And God never stopped pursuing me.
He followed me to my lowest place, to where I would not have gone in pursuit of anyone, and again told me He loved me, and that He had paid the penalty of my sin, and wanted to give me His righteousness.
He offered me rest. Acceptance. Hope.
Even though I had rejected His offer for years, He still loved me. He still wanted me.
And when I finally surrendered to Him, He didn’t hit me over the head with “why didn’t you trust me sooner” and “I told you your life would be a mess.” He said,
“I came that they might have life, and have it abundantly” John 10:10
I am so very grateful.