Psalm 131:1-3 ESV –
1 O LORD, my heart is not lifted up; my eyes are not raised too high; I do not occupy myself with things too great and too marvelous for me.
2 But I have calmed and quieted my soul, like a weaned child with its mother; like a weaned child is my soul within me.
3 O Israel, hope in the LORD from this time forth and forevermore.
Godly desires are not wrong. Wanting to serve as an act of worship is not wrong. But sometimes God says no to "good" things . . .
Confusion. Disappointment. Frustration. Now what? Where do I go with these emotions?
My God is sovereign over all. If I am his child, and I am because he has redeemed me and I have been bought with a price (1 Corinthians 6:20), then God gives me my assignments. He has prepared good works for me to do (Ephesians 2:10).
When God says no to something good that I want to do, then I calm and quiet my soul like a weaned child with its mother. I "cease striving, and know that he is God. . ." (Psalm 46:10). I can trust God to know what is for my best. I don’t have to know all the details. I can trust him. . .
God, my hope, my security, is in you. I trust you. When you say no, it is for my best. You are my Father, my Refuge, my Shepherd, my Strength. I am your servant. Employ me as you will, for your honor and glory.